Autumn's Blissful Heart

I know there will come a time that you have a bunch of questions and I’m always  here to answer them. 

My Dear Babies,

So much has happened since the last time I saw you...

I just want you to know that everything that’s going on none of it is your faults. 

The man you saw in the pictures in my phone that time you asked was my fiancé the man I married I had planned to tell you guys but at the right moment not in the way you guys found out. 

I have moved from my old home in dammam and moved to khobar I chose the location because I’m front is a huge park for you guys to play in but unfortunately you guys never got the chance to play in it. 

I plan to move again so I can be closer to the shop I’m working. 

I have surprise for you guys InshAllah you will be happy, 

You guys I’ve a new sister her name is Reham I can’t wait for you guys to meet her and to take a lot of pictures and have fun together..

I hope you guys are okay and are behaving well. My dear Sultan please don’t be mad at Sulaiman to much he’ll grow out of his silly stages and inshallah you both will be close please always look after your sisters you’re the big brother so your job to look after your brother and sister is a important one. 

Everyday I’m praying that Allah keep you all safe and we be together again I love you all. 

My Dearest Sultan, Rana, Sulaiman...

its been almost 2 years since the last time I seen you all we went to see Toy Story 3 this was the last thing we did together and bought you guys what you wanted at ToysRus. 

I had eagerly couldn't wait to see you guys again but my heart was shattered when I learned I would not be allowed to see you until I went to the court I did not know the things that would be brought against me a lot of untrue things were said about me some things may have been true but many untrue things and things that wasn't a reason to prevent me from you three...

from that day on I felt I was fighting for my life you three are literally my life talking to you guys made my day seeing you guys even if you guys would fight brought peace to my heart even though you guys made me a bit crazy you guys fulfilled my life my mind and soul..

Each time we would talk before we would laugh and joke about anything from poop to questions about the fastest car and testing my math knowledge which was never that great to hearing sadness in the voices of my children from not being able to talk to me freely like they used to...

 I may have never been a perfect mother and nothing in this life have I did anything out of the intention of hurting any of you I hope one day you three will know that the things said about me were never true I have never said I didn't want you guys I have always wanted you all and nothing will ever stop me from fighting for you even if it meant seeing you one last time and speaking to you one last time as my last breath you kids are my life and not a day goes by that I don't think about you, cry for you and keep fighting and praying to be with you guys again...

we will soon be together where you guys will be able to laugh and play and not have to worry about anything anymore I assure you that Insha'allah until then may Allah always protect you 3 and your new baby sister from harm and always keep you close to me and to bring us back together again Ameen...